After a 24-year marriage ends, Carla Lalli Music reconnects with cooking as a source of memory, comfort, freedom, and self-knowledge. She revisits childhood tastes, feeding her children, the pressures of food media, the emotional work of separation, and the meals that helped her discover that pleasure and pain can coexist. Cooking ultimately becomes a way to notice her cravings, care for herself, and stop denying what she wants.