Kathleen Brooks recounts how Chi Alpha, affiliated with the Assemblies of God, used love-bombing and spiritual authority to control students, preying on her need for belonging and a father figure. Under leader Mark, she experienced isolation, control over her relationships, and delayed marriage and family plans, all framed as obedience to God. The toll led to a psychotic break, yet leaving was unthinkable due to spiritual and social pressure. After Mark's death, hidden sexual abuse and financial irregularities surfaced, prompting Kathleen to take responsibility for her role in perpetuating harm. She and her husband Ryan eventually left, losing friends and funding, but found a community of former members with similar experiences. Reflecting on 20 years lost, Kathleen expresses regret but also hope and healing, noting her marriage remains strong despite different deconstruction paths.