Meg describes a childhood of constant surveillance and emotional pressure within the Jehovah's Witnesses, where she was taught to be perfect and obedient. This lack of consent education led her to blame herself after being sexually assaulted by a fellow member. Forced by her mother to date an elder's son, she suffered a mental breakdown and suicide attempt in college. After confessing the assault to church elders, she was disfellowshipped, resulting in total social shunning from her community and family. During a traumatic miscarriage, her devotion to the religion's blood doctrine nearly cost her life when she refused a life-saving transfusion. Eventually, she found support outside the group and began rebuilding her identity. The biggest psychological shift was letting go of self-blame and guilt, which brought a sense of peace. She has since moved past anger, finding relief in existing without religious pressures and recognizing her inherent worth.